The Pool

Sitting by the pool, I attempt to create,

Emotions I transcribe, as I contemplate.

Feeling my heart, hearing my mind,

Mixed with old perceptions, all three in a bind.

The water seems cool, the breeze is quite crisp,

Yet inspiration is slow, as I stutter, I lisp.

Where do I find the fortitude to reset, to restart?

Where do I gather strength so I can take it all to heart?

How do I calm the water stirring in my head?

The negative ripples, how do I stop their spread?

Grudges, gripes, regrets, I know I must release

Inflated and crushed ego, how do I appease?

Stepping down the pool, the water and I become one,

Feeling the breezy wind, soaking in the warmth of the sun.

Totally surrendered to all my sensations,

Cleansing my energies, clearing all perceptions.

Leaving the shallow end, I swim a little deeper,

Head above water, thinking I am my own keeper.

In my mind I see old patterns, behaviors I must change,

Aiming for inner peace, my life how do I rearrange?

Should I dare make a change, I must face all my fears,

Dive through the depths of despair, no matter how severe.

Healing all wounds as I face my darkest past,

Letting go of transgressions, forgiveness at last.

Doggie-paddling with all strength, I strive to stay afloat

In my mind I see a vision, a man standing in a boat

In a blink of an eye, his arm stretched and reached out

Saving me from drowning, it was Jesus, there's no doubt!

He pulled me out to safety, He held me in His embrace

Sobbing uncontrollably, I couldn't look Him in the face

In my brokenness, He read my mind, damaged and maimed

Yet filled with remorse and contrition, completely ashamed

Lifting my chin to meet to His gaze filled with mercy

Undeservingly I felt, yet in His love, I was worthy

God's unfathomable love is bigger than all of my transgressions

There's nothing He won't forgive with repentance and confession

With peace and serenity, I somehow realized

The Christ in my vision, had me utterly mesmerized

Reliving the encounter, I close my eyes once more

Totally unaware, a conversion is to come forevermore

Floating in the water, in my Lord God, I surrender,

Relying in His Holy Will, in His beauty and grandeur.

I don’t' need to understand, to see the ultimate picture

I must trust in His words and study the Holy Scripture. 

Swimming in laps, my present, I surely savor,

Engaging sensations, my renewed soul I favor.

Integrating all lessons of which I have learned,

Guaranteed conversion, I didn't realize I yearned.

Slowly I come back from the deep to the shallow end,

Encountering Jesus, my Savior, His mercy transcends!

Fearless and confident for the journey ahead,

Redeemed and restored, my old self, I shed.